#ShitHappens; What Can You Do?

Ughh; I'm an awkward ass fuckin clutz; lol smh.

Yesterday; I deleted 3 to 4 years of pictures out of my phone on accident. That's all the adventures of senior year; 1 or maybe 2 relationships {I think only 1}; freshman year shenanigans and a summer to remember. FML; somethin serious. So; I'm not gonna lie I cried...thought it was the end of the world and tried my damnedest to recover all those pics. And I almost had them; the memories flooded their way across my computer screen but eventually most ended up corrupted and I gave up. Yea; corrupted; just like all the things that make up my past relationships and friendships that didn't wanna keep going. They were corrupted; either by internal or external forces and eventually; they're gone and I give up. But you trust; I fought --for those pics and my relationships.

In the process of tryna get back some pictures that I rarely look at {I just find comfort in knowing they're there}; I deleted two weeks of texts and 3 phone numbers; one of which I wanna kick myself in the face for losing. I shoulda just let the pictures go cuz now I may have compromised something else....FML again.


The point I guess I'm tryna make at damn near 3'o'clock in the morning is: sometimes people hold onto the very thing God Himself is tryna rip away from you. I hope that everyone's life works out for the best...I wish it were a fairytale and no one ever felt the pain of being alone or depressed or let down but its not. This is real life and its going to hurt; you just have decide what you're willing to put up with. You can love someone to the end of the earth but you can't make them love you back. There is no correct explanation that will capture your lovers heart if they don't want you. But; uh I've been told life goes on...so; I'm gonna just cross my fingers and hope for a text message...I probably have soooo much more to say; but I'll save it for another post. Ughh; I need a person...someone to be good to; only if they're good to me though. #ShitHappens; What Can You Do? Uh; live I guess...

♥It's not that I don't; it's moreso that I can't...not anymore.